This is it!

Well, I have been thinking a lot lately about a blog.  I know I am way behind the times in getting one started, and in all honesty, I have started one many times, but then just gave up.  So, here I am again.  This time I did a little more thinking about what it was I wanted in a blog.  Which, is actually my problem.  Thinking...I think WAY too much about everything.  I  have to have my life organized in some fashion or I feel like a complete mess.  I become a mess and my head begins to think too much.  So, I took a long walk one day, and really thought about a blog.  This is what I decided. 

This blog is me giving myself permission to be a mess.  This blog does not have a "theme" per se.  Its not a blog JUST for updates on my family, it's not a blog that talks about Montana, or my travels, it"s just a place that I can be me, my over thinking, uncontrolled crazy "ramblings".  Why did I name it the Montana Girl's Ramblings?  Well, the one thing in life that I feel grounded to, completely and fully, is Montana.  Montana is my "home".  When I feel lost, frustrated, confused, angry....Montana is my refuge.  I'm not talking about actually being in Montana, that's the funny part, I haven't lived there for 25 years, but, Montana is the core of me..open spaces, no people, long winters, chilly summers, family, history, love,..."home".  So, it seemed appropriate for me to think of myself as a Montana girl. 

Ramblings....That come from a totally different place.  I am a walking runon sentence...literally.  My mind runs from financial obligations to joining PTA in a matter of 2 seconds.  I ramble, in my head, none stop.  I'm not just talking about self talk, I mean, blow my brain out of the top of my head ramble.  It's messy and frustrating and my biggest enemy.  And yet, it is who I am, and can be lovely and touching and deep.  Really, need I say more?

So, I am starting this blog, as a place to get all that "stuff" out of my head.  To allow myself to be messy (which I struggle with) and to give  myself permission to not have a plan, to not have a reason, to not have a rational explaination, its just my place...my safe Montana place to let my mind ramble.